Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Not ENOUGH??

Ever feel like what you do is not enough?? I get through my day and think I did absolutely NOTHING, but yet I have been up since 6, on a dead run, and the only time I have sat down was on a white throne, with the door open so I can make sure my crawling baby isn't near the stairs. Then somehow I hear about things other people are doing and I actually find myself wondering, "Should I do that?"

I just have to be grateful for all that I do get done, and all that I have!! I am glad that right now I have a job, and that I don't have to go around searching for a way to help out financially! A job that fulfills my financial, social, and creative needs. A job that I love. A job that I can do it in my own home, and that I have other little angels that help me so that Sydnee isn't neglected! I am so happy that my husband loves me for who I am, and not for what I get done! I love that I get a few grace years with Sydnee where she won't remember all my stresses and mistakes! I love that she smiles at me. I also love that I have this BLOG so that I can write down my thoughts.

Note to self: Remember that when you feel stressed out 'cause you feel like you don't get anything done, or 'cause you want to do so many other things..............Life is short.
Don't get your hands in so many pots that you don't enjoy the pot of gold right in front of your face. Take time to breathe. Take time to Smile and Laugh. Take time to think, grow and improve. And always remember what REALLY matters.
I am Julie Kaye Gardner,
and I am great.......no matter what!

18 comments:

Amy said...

I totally know how you feel. I have days that I can get a million things done, and other days where all I do is wipe butts and noses (but I feel like I haven't had a break.) It's all good, take it in stride. We are all different and everyday is different. I have had to learn not to compare myself with others...especially ones who aren't in my same boat.

Ace said...

You ARE enough. I've had to learn that lesson the hard way sometimes. Thank so much for the reminder.

Lori said...
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Lori said...

Julie,

I have found over the years that the only thing that truly matters is your relationship with Heavenly Father. When that is right, everything else will be too. And it doesn't hurt to have a good husband who worships the ground you walk on :) You do your mother proud with this post. I love you!

Lori

Anonymous said...

You are sooooo great! Trust me when I say we all feel this way from time to time. Life is crazy! Just enjoy being a mom on the good days and know that the bad days are just making you a stronger person! Love ya!

And yes I can help make your pictures bigger. You want me to send you an email?

Lisa Nielsen said...

JK, what a great post! I love your little quote at the end about the pot of gold. We are so blessed with these little angels and nothing else really matters...dishes, laundry, cleaning...none of it! You are doing great! I can't get that stuff done and I don't have a job! I'm just busy playing with my baby:)

Lisa Nielsen said...

Oh, and P.S. I love your Cruella costume!!! I want it!

Jaci Moore said...

I know how you feel! Today I just played Scrabble on the computer and with the kids ON the ground. Then 2 min. before my appts. I just picked up a few things. (The house was a disaster!) The first year or two with each kid is still an adjustment, plus the first year is like all work and frustration, at least it is for me. Good luck feeling better.

S&F Seminario said...

Just wanted to say that Fernandidily was reading some of our book of old love emails from the courtship dates to me last night before we fell asleep, and there was one where you had come to visit us in Logan and I was extolling your virtues and my appreciation for you. And then soon after that you whisked me forcefully away to Nauvoo the Beautiful so I could get en-gagged. You are a such a good friend. I love you.

Rachel said...

I think you are pretty much amazing. You do a fantastic job with everything you attempt. I wish I was more like you! xoxo

Mindika said...

You are enough! Every woman and mom feels that way from time to time. It's good to remember that we all have different talents, skill, and blessings. No one of us can have it all...we just have to be greatful for all the good things we do have, and we all have lots of good things.

Thanks again for dinner tonight. I wish we could have stayed longer. For sure we'll get together again soon.

Chelsea said...

Duh!
Sorry, but OF COURSE YOU ARE GREAT!!!!!!! We have all been telling you that for years! :)
xoxo

Scott and Megan said...

can i get an amen, a hallelujah, and a hail mary!! JK I LOVE YOUR HONESTY and EVERYONE feels this way (and if they say they don't, they're full of sh*t!) Just know that PEOPLE ARE THINKING THAT ABOUT YOU!!! "How can I be more like JK and get all that stuff done"...seriously...I think it all the time! AND YES your husband loves you regardless of what is "accomplished" and who's to say what the definition of accomplished really is!
I am Megan Lee and I want to more like Julie Kaye! IT'S TRUE!!!! I love you regardless of if you even have a bra on or not! You rock 24/7!!

Scott and Megan said...

and of course by "I want to more like," I meant "I want to BE more like..."

Dottie Stay said...

I like Megan's comment! You are heaven sent, and I don't care if we just sit and stare at the tv, talk, or cuddle watching a movie, just being around you makes me a better person. I hate reading other people's blogs because the next thing I know I am depressed about how I am so behind, don't do anything, and beating myself up because my 1 year old isn't reading! Um, hello, I can only do what i can do, and most days that it survive. I mean we are all alive, and fed, and that is a great day. Minute to minute is how I have to take things, other wise I would pull my hair out, and then what would be my excuse for taking more then three hours for getting my hair done. No really Deron it takes that long. At least he isn't coming over to your house looking for me. Um, oops. I still love that. and yeah, bras are totally overrated.

Emily said...

Awesome post, plain awesome! My thoughts exactly on motherhood. :)

Karin's Blog said...
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Karin's Blog said...

Julie Kay, You are GREAT! You have blessed my life even if you don't know how. You have done SO much goodness in your life. I love having some one (YOU)I can ALWAYS look up to. Thank you SOOOOoooooooooooo..... much!!!!!!